Why I Fell Off the Internet

Have you ever received a gift that you loved and were so grateful for, and made a mental note to write a thank you card to the gift giver instead of immediately writing one? And then perhaps you put the gift away or in a pile, or even on display somewhere in your home, and every time you saw it you heard that little voice in your head say you still need to write that note!…

And then maybe one day that voice is answered by another voice. One that says you’ve been putting it off too long, that you really should have written it sooner.

And now you become fearful of that gift and avoid looking at it because it reminds you that you failed, to give the gratitude the gift-giver deserved.

And if you continue, you avoid it until it weighs so heavily on your mind that what once was a small thing is now beating a constant rhythm into your brain.

This is how and why I (Anna) fell off the internet…for six months.

Writing this post is pretty uncomfortable. I don’t enjoy admitting my flaws any more than the next person, and I feel guilty for letting you down – whether it be not responding to your comments or keeping up with all the other lovely bloggers and designers I’ve had the pleasure to connect with.

Please know that I appreciate all your kind words and encouragement and I haven’t forgotten you. I really miss sharing projects and getting feedback and generally being surrounded by the incredible talent and creativity that’s out here in the interior design corner of the internet.

I simply wanted to tell you all how sorry I am, and that I am going to start anew. Beginning with this post!

Back in May I had just started a new position at a design firm, was preparing for a move across the country, and was planning a wedding at the same time. That, on top of writing and being a mom, became quite overwhelming and it just so happened that we were taking two weeks off to house hunt and attend a friend’s wedding. I thought I’d take a two-week break, but then…well.  You know what happened.

However, life has finally calmed down. My husband Austin and I are now happily married and have settled into our 1970s fixer-upper just outside of Denver, CO. Our son just started preschool and our house is finally in usable condition after months of living in a construction zone. (More on that later).

Our favorite shot from the day (photo by Rodeo & Co.):

Our getaway vehicle was probably Austin's favorite part -- his dad lent us his '69 BMW

Here’s a quick shot of our home when we first bought it this spring. It is a serious shade of blue:

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I’ll be posting a full “before” tour soon so you it in all its brown shag glory, along with our plans and progress this summer.

As always, thank you for reading and generally being the wonderful human beings that you are. And if you want to catch up on our doings this summer you can check it all out on Instagram.

x

Anna

P.S. Bloggers — I’d love to hear from you about how you keep the momentum up when you’re feeling’ blogger burnout.  How do you stay motivated?

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Comments (14 )
  • Teresa
    | 16 October 2015

    Yay! I’m so glad you’re back!

    • annabode
      | 16 October 2015

      Thanks Teresa! — me too 🙂

  • Stephanie
    | 16 October 2015

    Welcome Back! I am an AWESOME procrastinator so I know EXACTLY what you are talking about! Output does not have to be a bothersome routine. Life happens and when you feel like writing write. I would rather read something you WANT to share instead of something you feel so-so about.

    • annabode
      | 16 October 2015

      Thanks Stephanie – procrastinators unite! That makes sense and I totally agree. I think if I had kept at it and pushed through, my heart wouldn’t have been in it and my stuff wouldn’t have been much fun to read. Excited to start again though — thanks for the encouragement! 🙂

  • JB
    | 16 October 2015

    Um, I actually really love that blue.

    • annabode
      | 16 October 2015

      Haha, touché! It’s staying for a while but I’m afraid it’ll be painted in the spring. Just not our jam 🙂

  • Shannon Churchill
    | 17 October 2015

    It’s like you’re speaking directly to my heart Anna!! I can relate on so many levels. Thanks for being so honest and forthright. I’m still in contemplation mode about where to take this whole blogging journey (I wish I didn’t spend so much time in my head!). I’m so happy to hear you’re back on the scene. And whether you continue to blog or not, you’re definitely not a failure. You’re naturally gifted at this whole design thing; you’ll find a way to best express it. Excited to see what you’re up to!

    • annabode
      | 17 October 2015

      Shannon you are just the sweetest! Thank you so much — I’ve wondered the same thing for the past few months and I think the most important thing going forward is finding balance. As bloggers we can get so wrapped up in creating content that it takes over our lives (especially when we don’t have a team of assistants, and we’re trying to keep up with those who do!). I really do enjoy blogging but designing is my real passion and where I’m planning on putting the most focus in the future. Thank you for your kind words! So lovely to hear from you xoxo

  • Leigh Anne
    | 20 October 2015

    I am so glad you are back and I am right there with you on that nagging in your head when you know you’ve put something off for too long. Can’t wait to see the progress you’ve made on the house!

    • annabode
      | 20 October 2015

      Thanks Leanne! Can’t wait to share it 🙂

  • Shannon (Our Home Notebook)
    | 21 October 2015

    It’s totally okay for life to take center stage, I’d say that’s completely normal and good! Love hearing what you’re up to. Your wedding looks absolutely gorgeous and I love seeing glimpses of your new home on Instagram. You’ve done so much and its just lovely.

    • annabode
      | 21 October 2015

      Thanks Shannon! Your kitchen looks gorgeous by the way, I love the look without the cabinet doors on your uppers. Seriously gorgeous transformation 🙂

  • Kristen
    | 21 October 2015

    So glad you’re back! Congrats on everything life has brought your way! Don’t feel guilty about taking time off – no explanation needed! Looking forward to all your new adventures, but remember, no pressure! We’re all here and will read when you post!

    • annabode
      | 21 October 2015

      Thanks girl! So happy to hear that xoxo

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